puckandpie | time to talk [dated to 1/13/2016]

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time to talk [dated to 1/13/2016]

It's that quiet time of night, the last half hour or so after Derek's already booted out the last of the stragglers and the few employees left over are all silently cleaning up so we can head out as quickly as possible. We don't need that many hands for closing, to be honest, just one or two in the front to take care of the tables and floors and me in the back to clean up the kitchen. So I'm really not surprised at all when I push open the kitchen door to find only Derek finishing up with the bar in front.

I already have my coat on -- the leather one Derek got me for Christmas because it fits me so, so well -- and am looking forward to the quiet walk home. After hours and hours of forcing smiles and chipper conversation, it'll be nice to not have to pretend for awhile.

Derek's back is to me and I let myself watch him for only a moment or two before heading for the door. I know he can both hear and smell me so, as much as I'd maybe like to, it's not like I can just sneak out.

"I'll see you tomorrow, Mr. Hale," I say, hoping there's enough of a teasing lilt still left in my voice as I reach for the door.

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"Yeah, one shot is enough for a few hours, he said," Derek tells him, smiling when Bitty takes the vial. He bites his lip at the question, looking down at the vial.

"He gave me eight shots, but you're the first person I've asked," Derek admits, looking sheepish. "Everyone who took it at the party was fine, and Magnus-- I know he can be kind of an ass, but he gave this to me as a gift. Like he knew how much it would mean to me. And Luke trusts him, and I trust Luke."

It's kind of a thin argument, and Derek's shoulders droop a little. "It's completely up to you if you want to try it."

He smiles a little, almost teasingly. "But if something were to happen to you, I'd do my best to rip Magnus' throat out, just so you know."

Oh. I suppose that answers my question of if I'm the first.

A new flood of hope rolls through me and I have to squash it quick before it gets out of control, but I still can't help the smile that tugs at my lips. I glance down at the vial again, considering. Even if something did happen to me, I know there are plenty of magical people here who could probably fix it, either before or after Derek rips Magnus to shreds. (And, goodness, the idea of Derek doing that because of me is both thrilling and terrifying.)

Unless it kills me. There'd be no coming back from that.

But, however mischievous Magnus may be, he doesn't strike me as particularly murderous. And I think he'd know better than to kill off the friends of a werewolf.

"I want to," I finally reply, thumbing lightly at the tiny little cork at the top of the vial. "Should I, uh. Do you think it'll hurt? Should I prepare myself?"

Derek lets out a breath that he didn't even realize he was holding, smiling in relief when Bitty says that he wants to try it.

"I don't think so," Derek says. "I talked to a few people who took it at the party. They said that they felt funny for a second and then they were on four legs."

Derek looks Bitty over, noting his coast and the snugness of his jeans. He chuckles softly and gestures at him. "You'll probably need to take off your clothes though."

Derek's gaze drops to my chest and then travels downward and, thinking I must have something on me, I look down to check. And that's right about when he says I should take my clothes off.

I can feel my entire face go red and I whip my head up to stare at him. "But it's-- it's so cold!" I point out. But that's honestly not my biggest worry. I've been naked tons of times in front of other guys. Heck, back at Samwell, it happened daily, but here... well, here, I haven't been in months. And I certainly haven't with Derek.

There was that one time in that other version of Darrow when I was nearly naked and Derek entirely so and we shared a bed. But I absolutely can't think about that right now. I can't.

Instead, I suck in a breath and force the wild beating under my chest to calm down.

"Okay," I say with a definitive nod. "Here." I hand the vial back to him and start in, unzipping and shrugging off my jacket first, followed by my shirt. I fold them neatly and set them just under a tree, trusting that Derek will know how to find this spot later, and then toe off my shoes and peel off my socks. The ground is frigid under my toes which is a nice distraction as I tug my jeans off next, turning just a little away from Derek before finally sliding off my underwear.

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Derek hadn’t meant that Bitty needed to take his clothes off right now, but he doesn’t try to stop him. Bitty grew up playing sports, and Derek remembers that locker room mentality. Still, he has to resist the urge to let his gaze sweep over Bitty’s body curiously. And okay, he fails.

Bitty is small, but he’s all lean, compact muscle. He has strong thighs and an ass that Derek has admittedly already stared at through his tight pants a time or two. His glance is fleeting, and too quick for Bitty to even notice, and then he starts removing his own clothes.

Once they’re both naked, Derek gestures at the vial, anticipation running through him. “Okay, go ahead. I’ll shift when you do.”

It's even more awkward to stand there, completely naked, as Derek strips down to nothing. I keep trying to tell myself it's just like the locker room, but I know it's not. For one, Derek isn't a teammate and, even if he were, well. It's not like I've never been attracted to a teammate before.

But in a locker room there are easy distractions, like the process of putting on or taking off your own gear, conversations between teammates, coaches whispering in a far corner. There are plenty of things to look at and pay attention to other than the fact that there is an extremely attractive naked man two feet in front of you.

I'm trying so hard not to be weird about the whole thing, mentally warring with myself over whether or not to let my gaze drop below Derek's. Is looking too obvious? Or is actively not looking even more obvious?

In the end, I let myself sneak when Derek nods down at the vial again, just long enough to see the heavy hang of his cock between his thighs and-- goodness. Okay. Okay, that's.

The vial.

Right.

Nodding, I glance up at Derek's face again and then take a breath, pull off the tiny cork on the vial, tip my head back, and swallow it down with my eyes closed. It's not the greatest thing I've ever tasted, but it doesn't make me gag. It's strangely warm though, like alcohol and, just like Derek said, it feels a little strange. Not a bad sort of strange, just... strange.

And then I'm suddenly, in the blink of an eye, much closer to the ground. And, oh. So much warmer.

Derek watches closely as Bitty knocks back the liquid, heart beating fast. He doesn't think that anything bad will happen, but still. He cares about Bitty and this is sort of a big deal.

A grin splits his face when he's suddenly looking at a golden wolf with reddish ears and a big fluffy tail. He sinks to his knees and reaches out to scratch Bitty between the ears, chuckling a bit. "You're so fluffy. How do you feel?"

After a moment, Derek reaches into his jeans and takes out his phone, snapping a few photos of Bitty wolf before turning on the front facing camera and turning the phone around, holding it up so that Bitty can get a good look at himself. "You make one good lookin' wolf."

For about three seconds I'm at eye level with the portion of Derek's anatomy I just spent the past highly awkward few minutes trying not to look at. And it's really no less intimidating through the eyes of a walk.

Though, maybe 'intimidating' isn't really the right word. Maybe 'delicious?'

Goodness, I really need to stop thinking about this.

It gets easier when Derek crouches in front of me, brings his face close to mine and I know it has to be the wolf instinct inside me, but I'm suddenly compelled to lick his face. So I do. His stubble scratches my tongue, but it mostly feels and tastes nice and I know my tail's wagging.

Oh my gosh, I have a tail.

I immediately whip around to see it, the making out the light fluff there and on the rest of me before tipping my head back to look up at Derek. I don't know if he can understand me, but I can understand him. He's taking our picture now and it's impossible not to nuzzle up closer, his skin warm against my cold, wet nose. I like him again, right on the chin and try to answer his question with an enthusiastic, "Yes!"

Only it comes out as a yip. And I don't even care. Is this what it feels like to be a wolf all the time? Warm and sure and powerful? Gosh, no wonder he spent so much of his time in that other Darrow in this form. I would've, too!

"Oh god, you're just a big puppy. Why am I not surprised?" Derek laughs as Bitty licks his face, wriggling around so much that Derek can barely get a picture. He ends up taking a video instead, wrapping an arm around Bitty and holding him close, smiling as Bitty keeps licking him. "Okay, my turn."

He puts his phone away and shifts himself, shaking out his fur. His is inky black where Bitty's is tawny gold, and that isn't where the differences end. Being a werewolf, he's a decent bit bigger than Bitty, who is on the smallish side with skinny legs and oversized paws.

Derek pads over and presses his face to Bitty's, nuzzling in close. It's such a good feeling that Derek actually whimpers, tail thumping, because while there are other wolves in the city, they aren't pack. Bitty isn't a werewolf, but it's close enough. In that moment, Derek feels downright jubilant.

There are so many smells, that's the first thing I notice. And I pick up Derek's immediately, musky and spicy and familiar. He smells like he always does, only more and it lingers even when he turns into a wolf himself.

He's still bigger than me which is unsurprising, and he trots right on over, pressing his muzzle into the ruff of my neck. I want to laugh and I think I do, only it comes out as a playful huff as I bounce on my feet, pushing against him. There's an itch under my skin, under my fur, to run, but I want him to come with me.

I'm not going anywhere without him.

So I rear up onto my hind legs for a second and then crouch low with my butt in the air, tail wagging. Derek's much more loose and playful as a wolf, I've learned that already. And right now, with the ground cold beneath my feet and the air chilly, I want to play.

Derek huffs, watching with fondness as Bitty bounces around. He looks and smells so happy, and Derek lets out a sigh of relief. This is what he wanted. He wanted Bitty to be happy, if only for a few hours.

Bitty is buzzing with energy, back paws thumping against the dirt, and Derek playfully tackles him down into the leaves. He knows that Bitty is currently just a wolf, and not a werewolf. He doesn't have all the speed and strength that Derek has, so he's gentle when he takes him down, sending them tumbling a few times.

He pops up and barks, nipping at Bitty's heels before he takes off in a run, darting easily through the trees.

Derek tackles me to the ground, teeth bared in a way I know, instinctively, is only in play. We wrestle for a few seconds, me on my back as I kick at him with my hind legs, leaves and sticks catching in my fur.

And then he's up again, nipping lightly at my feet before he darts off.

Taking his cue, I leap to my feet and chase after him. The wind through my fur is exhilarating, scents from all over flooding my nostrils as my paws pound on the forest floor. I leap over fallen logs and brambles, scare a few rabbits, and I know Derek must be running just fast enough for me to not quite catch him, but I don't even mind.

I feel free.

Derek isn't running anywhere near full speed, slow enough that Bitty can keep pace but not quite catch him. He veers off suddenly, panting as Bitty skids past him in an attempt to stop, and Derek barks and pounces on him, tackling him down into the leaves.

He lets out an amused huff and nips at Bitty's ear, nosing at his neck and licking at his muzzle before he hops off of him, prancing playfully on the other side of the clearing.

Up ahead of me, Derek suddenly veers to the right, his paws kicking up leaves and dirt in the sudden change of direction and I stumble in my effort to stop. He's back before I've gotten my feet back under me, pouncing and nipping lightly at my ears.

I fall to my back instinctively again, kicking up at him as he nuzzles the ruff of my neck again, licks at my muzzle. I nip back as well as I can, lips pulled back to show my teeth, but it's all fun. I'm not aiming to hurt him and I know he won't hurt me, but there's still this instinct, low in my gut, that want's nothing more than to wrestle him to the ground.

But he gets away before I can, prancing to the other side of the clearing. I zoom off after him and jump up onto his back when I get close enough, knocking him down before prancing and preening a little.

Derek is having the time of his life. He’s been on runs like this with Luke, and they’ve wrestled like puppies even if they probably wouldn’t admit it when they back in their skin, and he enjoys them immensely. But there’s something about Bitty’s endless enthusiasm and pure, radiant joy that is really getting to Derek and making him feel better than he has in months.

Bitty pounces on him, taking him down into the leaves, and Derek lets out a playful growl before pushing Bitty off of him with his back feet, springing back onto his paws with his tail wagging like mad.

And then, just because he’s so happy, he tosses his head back and lets out a long, loud, celebratory howl.

Derek growls and, even like this, it makes something go warm low in my gut. It doesn't last too long, thankfully, especially with the way he immediately springs forward. He looks so overwhelmingly happy, eyes bright, and tail wagging. I'd give almost anything to see him this happy every day.

I startle a little when he tips his head back and howls, but only because I'm not expecting it. Much like the growl, it sends a thrill through me, but it's a different sort. It's one that makes me want to join in.

So I do.

Closing my eyes, I tip my head toward the sky and take a deep breath before letting it all out. It's not as loud or as deep as Derek's and, to be honest, I'm a little surprised by how it sounds at all. But it feels good. It feels so, so good.

A part of wouldn't really mind too much if Magnus's concoction kept me like this forever. I can think of worse things.

When Bitty howls along with him, it feels like something in his chest gets unstuck and settles into its proper place. It’s this feeling of pack and home and right, and he doesn’t think about how it won’t last. He just lets himself live in this moment, side by side with this scrawny puppy and his first ever howl.

They keep going until the air runs out of their lungs, and Derek looks at Bitty with bright eyes, letting out a happy bark before tackling him back down into the leaves. They tumble easily down a mossy hillside, and they settle at the bottom with Derek on his back, shaggy head pillowed on Bitty’s flank where he lays on his side.

For a long few moments, we're howling together. I mix it up a little, barking between howls, trying to make something a little musical out of it and grinning when it seems like Derek's playing along. Or at least it feels like I'm grinning. My tail certainly won't stop wagging.

I'm a little winded when Derek cuts me off with a sharp, playful bark and then he's knocking into me again, sending me falling into a pile of leaves. We wrestle, toppling over a hillside and some part of me thinks it should probably hurt -- there are sticks and stones poking me in the back the whole way down -- but it doesn't. It barely registers at all, really.

We come to a rest at the bottom, my heart still pounding, and my whole body rocked with adrenaline, like coming off the ice after a great game. Derek's on his back, his head resting against my leg and I curl enough to nuzzle the side of his head, licking gratefully.

I feel so good all over. It's easy to let my eyes close for just a moment, to enjoy the feel of Derek against me, warm and happy.

Derek is reminded that Bitty is human. Well-- a wolf. He needs to rest. So Derek stays there, curled up with him, and lifts his head as Bitty nuzzles him. He can smell his gratitude, and his happiness, and Derek lets out a quiet little rumble.

He shifts a little so that his head is resting on Bitty's underbelly, soft golden fur tickling his nose. They lay there for a moment in a patch of sunshine, the air cool and still around them, and Derek feels content. He feels so happy, so wholly grateful for this moment.

It's so warm right here, from the sun and my wolf fur and from Derek laying atop me, his head rested on my belly. I feel so overwhelmingly content and I think I must doze for awhile, comfortable and happy in a way I haven't been in what feels like months.

I have no idea how long I doze, but it's only the chill creeping in that has me opening my eyes again. And when I do, the realization of where I am and what's happened hits like a bag of bricks. The sticks and rocks under my side definitely hurt now and I'm cold everywhere except where Derek's furry head is still resting on my belly.

"Oh my goodness," I say, feeling my face flush red as I carefully draw my knees up, trying my best to cover myself. I mean, obviously Derek has seen me naked now, but his head is right there.

Derek is dozing himself, lost somewhere between asleep and awake, when Bitty suddenly curls up and jostles Derek. His head turns so that his cold, wet nose bumps into Bitty's thigh, and he opens his eyes and yawns, breath hot against Bitty's skin before he pulls himself to his feet.

Bitty is human again, and Derek tries not to feel disappointed. He knew that it would be a short amount of time, and he's grateful that he got to have it at all. Bitty smells embarrassed, and for a moment he doesn't understand why. But then he realizes that he's naked, and that's strange for Bitty, so Derek makes a show of bowing down and putting his head on the ground, covering his eyes with his massive paws while he keeps his back end up in the air, tail wagging.

As soon as Derek's on his feet, I'm able to bring my knees up completely, hiding the most embarrassing bits. I swear I hear Derek actually whine for a second, a soft sort of plaintive sound that makes my chest ache even through my embarrassment, but it's quickly forgotten when he bows to rest his head on the ground and covers his eyes with his paws.

It's enough to make me laugh and I feel some of the anxiety fade away as I get to my feet. "You look adorable like that, you know. I may never let you live this down," I tell him, carefully covering myself, shivering at the cold. I wish we'd had the foresight to fall asleep closer to where we'd left our clothes. "Could, uhm... I mean. Would it be horribly rude to ask you to fetch us our clothes?"

As nice as Derek is being about wanting to give me my privacy, it's not like he can close his eyes as we make our trek back to the other side of the clearing. And I wouldn't ask him to as mortified as I might be.

Once Bitty laughs, Derek pops back up onto four feet, tongue lolling out happily as he looks up at him. Nudity really is no big deal, and it isn’t like Bitty has anything to be embarrassed about anyway.

He huffs out a laugh when Bitty asks him to go get their clothes, covering his crotch with his hands and shivering. Derek nods and walks forward to rub himself against Bitty’s legs, nipping playfully at his hip before he takes off like a shot towards where they left their clothes. It takes some nosing and pawing at things, but he eventually gets their shoes and clothes wrapped up in two bundles, carrying everything in their shirts. He grips them both in his teeth and trots back over to where Bitty is waiting, dropping them onto the ground.

And then he shifts back himself, stretching his arms up over his head and shaking himself a bit, grinning at Bitty. He feels the urge to hug him, but he should probably wait until they’re clothed, for Bitty’s sake. “Well? How was it?”

Derek jumps to his feet and pads over to me, nosing and nipping at my hip before I swat at him, feeling my face go red. That's his nose, essentially, right on my bare skin. If he's not carefully, we're both going to be terribly embarrassed soon.

Luckily, he runs off soon after, presumably to get our clothes as asked. I stay where I am, feeling overwhelmingly exposed in the cold air. It takes him awhile to return and, by then, I've curled into as much of a ball as possible, knees drawn up to my chin and my arms tight around my legs. I'm absolutely freezing, shivering violently, and I've never been so relieved as when I see him come barreling down the slope.

"Oh, thank goodness," I breathe, when he drops our clothes into small heaps right at my feet. I don't even think before grabbing my shirt and shoving it on. The fabric is just as cold as my skin, but having another layer at all is nice.

I glance up again at the sound of Derek's voice, my eyes catching on the fact that he's completely naked. Again. It feels different now though. Less mortifying somehow. I really really wish I felt like I could look my fill, but at least this time I don't glance away immediately, even managing a smile as I grab my underwear and push to my feet to slide them on.

"It was amazing," I tell him, meaning it completely even as I'm still shivering. "Is that how it feels every time you turn? Just... wild and free? Like you could do almost anything?"

“Shit,” Derek breathes out, feeling like an ass as he watches Bitty shiver. He steps into his own black boxer briefs and pulls them on before grabbing his leather jacket and putting it around Bitty’s shoulders, keeping an arm around him to hold him close and transfer some of his body heat.

“Yeah, it’s a little like that,” Derek says with a breathless grin, nodding at Bitty’s description. “Problems just sort of seem to melt away, at least for a little while.”

Derek’s smile softens and he presses his cheek to the top of Bitty’s head, truly feeling like pack in that moment. “I’m glad you liked it.”

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