Eric Bittle (
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Anxious as we both are and sore as my feet are, Jack doesn't put up too much of a fight when I insist on using the app on my phone to call us a car. I spend the whole ride back to Chelsea with one hand wrapped tight in Jack's and trying not too fidget too much with the other. Butterflies are downright having a dance party in my belly, but it's not the sort of nerves I used to get before games or even the ones I'd get before checking practice.
No, these are the good kinds of nerves. Like the ones I felt right before Jack kissed me for the first time.
Everything becomes sort of blur once we make it back to the building even as I want to remember every last moment. We thank the driver and then take the elevator up to our floor, Jack's hand not leaving mine for a second. And then I lead him down the hallway to his apartment. Part of me kind of wants to do this in my own bed, but Jack's is about as familiar as mine these days and Macha and Shannon probably need to be let out. Or at least fed. Elvis should be fine.
Jack lets go of my hand to unlock the door and the kids are right there when we walk in, their tails wagging wildly.
It's a nice distraction.
"Hi, babies," I coo, ignoring the nerves and the heat still pumping through me. I glance over at Jack. "Do we need to feed them one last time before, uh. Before we do anything else?"
No, these are the good kinds of nerves. Like the ones I felt right before Jack kissed me for the first time.
Everything becomes sort of blur once we make it back to the building even as I want to remember every last moment. We thank the driver and then take the elevator up to our floor, Jack's hand not leaving mine for a second. And then I lead him down the hallway to his apartment. Part of me kind of wants to do this in my own bed, but Jack's is about as familiar as mine these days and Macha and Shannon probably need to be let out. Or at least fed. Elvis should be fine.
Jack lets go of my hand to unlock the door and the kids are right there when we walk in, their tails wagging wildly.
It's a nice distraction.
"Hi, babies," I coo, ignoring the nerves and the heat still pumping through me. I glance over at Jack. "Do we need to feed them one last time before, uh. Before we do anything else?"
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The reaction is exactly the one that I was hoping for and I let out a ragged breath, watching as he moves back desperately against my hand. It's unbelievably hot and I press my fingers in again, applying unrelenting pressure to the spot. I'm in awe, honestly.
"I wonder if I could make you come just like this," I murmur, twisting my fingers in and out slowly and making sure to hit just the right spot every time they sink in. "Maybe I should make you come. It might make you relax. I want to put my cock inside you so bad, Bitty."
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I just hope it's good for him.
He's still moving his fingers, still pressing against that spot over and over again and I have to reach down between my legs to grab myself, needing the friction too much, but not wanting to come yet at the same time. "Jack." My voice sounds so small, so weak, but it's about all I can manage right now. "God, Jack, please. It's so... it's so, so good, oh my God."
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"Here, babe. Turn over for me," I tell him, withdrawing my fingers long enough to roll him over onto his back. When my fingers sink in again, there's hardly any resistance at all. His body draws them in eagerly, and I tug his hand away from his cock so I can grab it myself. I stroke him in time with the thrusts of my fingers, watching his face as it contorts with pleasure.
My cock is still completely untouched but it's stiff and leaking just from the sight of him, from knowing that I'm giving him so much pleasure.
"Come for me, Bits," I breathe out raggedly. "Come on, I want to see."
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The angle's harder to reach this way, but I push my feet into the bed for leverage, arching up against him and gasping roughly when he wraps his hand around my cock.
"Oh my God, Jack. But I want--" It's all I can do to keep my eyes open then and I finally give in, tossing my head back as I rock up into his hand and down onto his fingers. He knows just exactly what he's doing, exactly where to touch, and in moments I'm too close to stop anything at all, every muscle in my body winding tight. "I want-- oh God. Oh fu-- Jack."
My orgasm hits like a freight train, body bending as I come over Jack's fist and all over my belly, my legs shaking and everything so so tight.
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After taking up photography, I started noticing the beauty in small moments that I would have otherwise ignored. I learned to appreciate sunsets, or the small ripples in a pond. There's beauty in everything but there is nothing more beautiful than what I'm looking at now. I wish I had my camera so that I could capture this moment forever. Bits rocks up as his mouth falls open, brow furrowed in pleasure, and the shout that he lets out as he comes rings in my ears.
My fingers move through it, slowing slightly as he comes to rest against the bed. I let go of his cock, dragging my thumb gently down the shaft just to see it twitch. I don't think my own cock has ever been this hard. I've never wanted anything not related to hockey so badly before. My body has never reacted like this to another person, and I wonder if I'll ever get used to it.
"There, isn't that better, mon chou?" I say raggedly, still moving my fingers in and out. I spread them apart a bit, just to see how open he is, and the sight is so filthy that I nearly choke on my own breath. "I think I could fit a third now."
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"Oh my God," is still about all I can manage when I tip my head down to look at him, shuddering slightly when I feel him spread his fingers inside me and I just picture what it is he's said. "You-- You should try. Or just. Just get inside me. Please, Jack."
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"Hold on just a little longer, mon chou," I murmur, laying a line of gentle kisses along his cheek and down to his mouth as I slowly press three fingers into him. It's a tight fit, but I don't feel like I'm forcing anything. They slide right in and I sigh contently against his mouth before starting to move them in and out. "Mm, how's that? Almost ready for me, Bits?"
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"Jack." It comes out like a whine before I force myself to take a breath, force myself to relax.
His lips are still brushing the corner of my mouth and I finally manage a nod as the pain begins to slide away. "That's-- It's good. God, it's good, Jack. Please."
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My heart is beating in my chest and I don't really know what I'm doing, but all I want to do is make this good for him. I want it to be amazing.
I take the lube again and slick my cock before leaning over him, bracing myself with my palm on the bed next to his head. "You know I love you, right? I love you."
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Blinking my eyes open again, I peer down to watch him slicking himself up, his thick fingers wrapped around his thick length and-- oh goodness, we really are doing this. He's gonna be inside me.
Something about the way he looms over me then is somehow calming though and suck in a breath as I lift my hands to sides, feeling up all that smooth skin in muscle. There's so much sheer power in every inch of Jack. It should be intimidating. I know it used to be. But I also know Jack would never knowingly do a single thing to ever hurt me and that makes all the difference.
"I love you," I tell him right back and it feels like the most honest thing I've ever said. I take another breath then and spread my legs wider still, hooking one foot behind his butt so he knows I mean business. "I love you so much, Jack. And I want you so, so badly."
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My breath punches out of my lungs when he wraps his leg around me, and I know that he wants to do this. He may be nervous, and so am I, but he wants this. He wants me. Sometimes it's still so overwhelming to look at Bittle and know that, for some reason, he loves me. Sometimes it seems too good to be true, but I trust him. Even with my anxious and traitorous mind, I believe him.
"Okay, I've got you. If you want to stop, we'll stop, oui? Just tell me," I murmur, fingers trembling as I wrap my fingers around my cock. Rolling my hips forward, I nudge the slick head of my cock against his hole, and even that has me letting out a guttural moan. I still have no idea how I'll fit, but I will. I just have to go slow and be patient, and it will be more than worth it. "Here we go. Je t'aime, mon chou."
With a deep breath, I slowly press the head of my cock inside of him, moving as slowly as I possibly can. There's a finite tremble in my muscles from the effort of keeping so still, and I watch his face with wide blue eyes as I move. Slowly, so slowly sinking into his body. It's tighter than I even imagined, but slick and warm and so, so perfect.
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And then he's finding the right angle and just-- he's going in.
Everything sharpens to a white-hot pain for a second, every muscle in my body going tight as I gasp and hold on. But Jack stills right away, waits as I force myself to relax again, eyes closed as I find my breathing. And then he's moving again, pushing in further bit by bit. It's more intense than anything I've ever felt before, more than I think I ever would have guessed and it's like I'm being split apart and filled so full at the same time.
He's not even in all the way when I suck in a sharp breath, still staring up at him. "Jack," I breathe, barely more than a whisper, my hands still curled tight around his upper arms. "Jack, is it-- oh my God, you're huge."
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Even if my brain was running at full capacity, which in this moment it definitely is not, I don't think I could ever find the words to describe how good this feels. I've never been this close to another person, both physically and emotionally, and the way that Bits' eyes widen and his mouth falls open on a gasp as I push inside of him will be forever burned into my memory.
His muscles tense and it hurts, pulling a gasp from my lips as he tightens down around my cock, but I take a breath and wait it out. I know that he must be in pain and I hate that, even knowing that I did all I could do lessen the sting. It's an inevitable part of this, and I can do is be patient and hold still as he adjusts even though my body is crying out for me to sink in deeper.
"I'm not sure if this is one of those moments where I'm supposed to be humble," I say with a breathless chuckle, leaning down to kiss him. I want to distract him from the pain, and give him time to adjust. "Just keep holding onto me, and tell me when. Or-- is it too much?"
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"No, just-- Just gimme a second," I tell him with a quiet laugh. And, thing is, I know Jack will give me all the time I need. All I need to do is concentrate on how warm he is, how his body is like some kind of shelter around me. All I need to do is remind myself the pain will fade and everything will get so much better.
After a few slow breaths, I can feel the sting start to ebb a bit and I manage another kiss to Jack's lips before I nod a little, sliding one hand up to the back of his neck as I whisper, "Okay, uhm. Maybe... maybe keep going? Just-- slow still, please."
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"You can have all the seconds," I breathe out, muscles tensing as I hold myself up over him. His hands roam over my body but I don't so much as twitch until he gives me to okay to move again. My knee settles into the bed and I slowly, so slowly press forward until my cock sinks in deeper. I wait until he exhales and slide in deeper, and eventually I'm buried as deep as I can go. "There, that's all of it. God, Bits. You feel incredible."
And then I pause again, because I know the intrusion must take some getting used to. Part of me is still so amazed that Bittle's body could make so much room for me, letting me fill up his empty spaces.
There's already sweat at my temples and the small of my back, and the heat in my belly licks upwards and constricts my lungs. It's so much, so amazing, and I tremble as I kiss him again.
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"Oh my God," I breath, shaking a little and so, so grateful when he leans down to press a shaky kiss to my lips. It's a nice distraction and I curl one trembling leg tighter around his waist as I wait for everything to adjust.
The kiss is sort of sloppy, sort of shaky, but it helps relax everything and I smooth my hands higher over his shoulders. "God, you feel... Jack." There are no words to describe how good it is, how full I am. The pain is easing little by little as I suck in breath after breath and finally manage a, "Please... please start moving."
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The muscles in my core actually ache from trying so hard to keep myself still, but all of my attention is focused on the place where our bodies meet. I've never felt a sensation like this. Even slapping the puck towards the net for a game winning shot at the buzzer doesn't come close to comparing. He's vice-tight and molten hot, and I feel like I can barely breath as he draws me in not just with his body but with his everything. His eyes are big and brown and so fucking vulnerable, and I feel like I've just been given the world.
He tells me to move and I do, gasping as I roll my hips and sink into his body again. There's a sound ringing in my ears, quiet over the rush of blood, and it takes a moment for me to realize that it's my own voice that I'm hearing. Desperate French rolls off of my tongue and then it's just his name over and over, like nothing else even matters. "Bitty."
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Not to mention the French falling from his lips, oh my goodness.
"Jack," I breathe again, my voice hitching as he starts up a slow rhythm, every slow roll sending every nerve in my body on fire. "Oh, Jack. Oh my God." I'm useless like this, I know, just lying back and letting him rock into me, but I can't manage to do anything else but hold one, me knees up high and body curved, my hands grabbing tight to his shoulders.
And then he shifts just a little, changes the angle inside and my eyes snap open as pure heat shoots down my spine. I know just what he's hit and it's so astoundingly intense that I can't help the sound I make, my eyes wide as I try to hold on. "Fuck," cry out, lost in the sensation as I stare up at him, angling as best I can to make sure he hits that same spot again. "Oh God, please. Please, please, Jack. It's so good."
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"I've got you, mon chou," I murmur, even though I feel close to falling apart myself. But he's trembling in my arms and his eyes are so big and dark, and I feel like I'm drowning in his gaze. I cling to him and roll my hips again, doing my best to hit that same spot. His reaction is like something out of a dream, unbelievably beautiful, and I never want him to stop looking like that.
And so I don't stop. I hold onto him and I sink in again and again, moving just a little faster and thrusting just a little harder, and I lean down to swallow up all the noises he's making in a deep, messy kiss.
"I want to know what it feels like when you come," I whisper, first in French and then again in English. I can only imagine how amazing it'll feel, how tight he'll get. "I want to see it so bad, Bits."
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He's still moving, rocking his hips back and then forward, sinking into me each time, filling me up and splitting me in two. All I can do it cling to him, desperate to hold on as my legs start to shake. Every other thrust or so, he hits that spot inside me, makes my breath catch and my nerves explode and I don't know how I can be so hard without him even touching me, but I already feel so close to the edge, can feel my come leaking from the tip to pool on my belly.
"Jack," I whine when he murmurs something in French. But then he tries in English and I'm whining for a while different reason.
"I can't-- I don't--" Because as good as it all is, I don't think I can come like this.
It's so easy to just get lost in this though and I keep one hand locked around the back of his neck, keeping him close as I breathe into his open mouth, swallowing every punched exhale as he rocks in deep. "You... you first, okay?" I manage finally, squeezing my thighs around him and rolling my hips upward. "Come inside me. Please."
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"Merde," I groan, feeling all of the air leave my lungs as I thrust in deep. His cock is leaking between our bellies and I work my hand between us to wrap it around his cock. My hands still carry the callouses of a hockey player and I've always kind of liked the way they feel when I jerk off, and I can only hope that Bits feels the same. There hasn't been any complaints, at least, and his dick slides easily through the tight grip of my fist. "Me first, and then you."
It's not like it will take much effort. All I have to do is watch his face, his wide amber eyes and swollen cherry lips as I sink into his body. It's like we're one entity, almost like I won't be the same after this. I won't be the same, not at all. You can't feel something as amazing and intimate and perfect as this and not be a changed man, at least a little.
I stroke his cock in time with my thrusts and I stop holding back, letting my orgasm crash over me like a wave. I come like a shot, dick pulsing as I empty myself-- god, inside of him. It takes everything, every ounce of strength I have, to keep rocking my hips. The sensation makes me whimper and I work my hand around his cock, trying to coax his orgasm out of him with a pleading little whine. "Now, Bitty."
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"Oh," I breathe when he starts stroking me in time with his thrusting, every movement making electric shocks zing up my spine. I've never in my life felt something like this before, never felt anything even half as good and it's all I can do to keep clinging to Jack's broad shoulders, to just let myself feel.
I'm getting close, can feel it in the way my balls are drawing up tight and every muscle in my body is starting to clench. But Jack gets there first, his face contorting in a way I've seen before, though never quite like this. He's... amazing. That's the only word for it. He's amazing and beautiful and he loves me. He whines my name, his hand still tight around me, and my whole back bows under the force of it, my toes curling as I feel the whole wave rock through. Me feels huge inside me then as everything goes tight and I spill right over his fingers, shuddering through the shock of it, gasping for breath and I think I must white out as I fall back onto the mattress.
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At the edge of my consciousness, I'm dimly aware of Bits coming all over my knuckles. I feel the white-hot spurts of it, feel him go limp and boneless against the bed. There is not a single part of me that wants to pull out, away from him. I just can't yet, so I collapse on top of him and suck in deep breaths as my arms go around him, smearing his come into our skin.
"Bitty," I murmur, unable to say anything else. He's warm and trembling underneath me and I just love him so fiercely. My whole word is narrowed down to him, and I open my mouth against his jaw as I struggle to get a hold of myself.
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It's about all I can manage, my legs still trembling a little and my heart pounding so, so fast. I'm still breathing hard, like we just finished running sprints and the muscles in my thighs and hips are aching. Jack's draped over me and I swear I can feel his heartbeat just as easily as my own, his sweat slick with mine.
"Jack," I breathe a moment later, unable to keep the awe out of my voice as I bear down just a bit and then instantly whine at how big he still feels. "Jack, are-- are you okay?"
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He looks so beautiful, glistening with sweat and lips bitten red. My fingers slide through his damp hair and I lean down for a kiss, one that's soft and lingering. It takes a long time for me to pull back, and I cup his cheek as I feel my heart start beating at normal speed. "Really, though. Was it-- how do you feel?"
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