Tipping my head back, I watch as Jack pulls out the familiar bottle of lube and an unopened box of condoms. Even knowing just exactly what we're about to do, my cheeks still go warm with how real this all is. Jack seems nervous again, rubbing at the back of his neck as I consider what he's saying. What he's asking.

I know for a fact Jack hasn't been with anyone since he got to Darrow. As much time as we spend in each other's pockets, even lately, he wouldn't have the time. And Jack's just not the type for cheating, or even casual sex all that much.

"Is it... It would feel different, wouldn't it?" I ask, reaching out again to take one of Jack's hands in my own, just for the connection. "Have you ever done it without?"